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he ate my heart.
it is my last official night as an oakland university student. i want to say that coming home is the right decision but honestly i’ll never know what the best decision was for me. in a sense, i feel like i’m giving up like i do with everything else but at the same time home is where i feel i need to be right now.
i don’t regret the decision to come here initially. i feel that oakland served a purpose in my life that i needed to experience. i realized a lot about myself. i am over the one person i thought i would never forget about. i’ve come to terms with my sexuality and that i can’t change who i am. God will judge me one day, and i pray it’s not on my sexual preference but the content of my character. i’ve come to the conclusion that people are going to do their best to knock you down but staying down is not an option for me.
not a lot of people read this and i rarely write anything of my own but for those who do: i make a hell of a lot of mistakes. i screw up on a regular basis. i feel and learn something new everyday. i can’t ever make a decision and find it hard to open up to people. there are things in my past and even present that i’m not proud of and unlike everyone else, i regret. i would take back a lot of things in a heartbeat. BUT all of this makes me who i am. i am loved by the best family and friends a guy could have. i wouldn’t be able to cope in this world without them.
i promise i will do great things one day and i hope i didn’t bore anyone with this.
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